Press pause

Perhaps I had a bit of a crisis

A bit? It’s been 2 months

Yes. A bit.

Minimal.

Unimportant.

The crisis? Or me?

I’m not a crisis,

I’m a person.

A person having a crisis?

Maybe. Sometimes.

Some crisis,

it stops for breaks.

I find tiny expanses

Of sky and escape.

And the crisis goes,

“What now? Do I stop?”

But of course it doesn’t.

Instead,

it pauses.

The pauses fill me up,

swallow me whole,

surround me.

And yet

I do not drown in the pauses,

I drift.

 

 

 

 

 

 

THE NATURALS BY JENNIFER LYNN BARNES – REVIEW

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Format: Paperback

Number of pages: 308

Goodreads avg. rating: 4.15/5 stars

My rating: 3.5/5 stars

The Naturals by Jennifer Lynn Barnes is described as Criminal Minds for the young adult crowd. Now, I’m not really a person that reads a lot of crime fiction, in fact I think this may be the first of its kind that I have ever read. And as it is a young adult novel it definitely is a lot lighter than most crime fiction novels but it surprised me and I ended up actually enjoying it. This is one of those books that I think would be really really popular as a movie.

If you have not  heard of this book before, it revolves around this group of kids with “special abilities” but by that they don’t mean super powers. Oh, no. That’s where this is a little different from the norm. The kids in this book have skills such as a natural ability to read people, or emotions, or detect lies and because of this, the FBI offer them an opportunity to be trained in these skills in exchange for solving cold cases. That’s pretty much the basic summary. This is also the first book in a 4 book series.

My opinion on this book changed drastically at different points in my reading progress. When I first saw the book in the store, I was intrigued by the cover – I mean look at that, it’s a GIFT wrapped in POLICE TAPE.WHAT COULD IT MEAN?? – so I went ahead and read the synopsis. And then I was confused – the FBI need teenagers…? – but I just figured what the hell, so I bought it and started reading it immediately.

For me, the book started of pretty slow. Not much was happening and I believe I was 150 ish pages in when I started to wonder “WHEN IS THE COOL MYSTERY STUFF HAPPENING?” but from that point it started to pick up and there were all these plot twists and I was just entranced. I fled through it. So the only reason this book didn’t get a 4 star rating is because it started off slow.

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So let’s talk about Cassie. She’s more or less the typical young adult protagonist. She’s confused about some things and I don’t really know how to put it, I just didn’t LOVE her a whole lot. My favorite character from the book is actually Sloane. I just loved that she’d randomly spurt out all these statistics and facts.

Also the “romance” felt like it was just thrown in to the mix because it had to be. There was no real gradual build up in her emotions towards Michael and vice versa so it wasn’t really believable to me. Maybe it will get better in the next books but for now I really have no interest in this unnecessary “love triangle” between Cassie, Michael and Dean. Although I suppose Michael’s feelings toward her did have a plot point towards the end?

Speaking of the end, I DID NOT SEE THAT COMING. I’d forgotten that Locke even had red hair and when it was revealed that she was the killer I just took a moment to go “Wait whaaaat?” and I was entirely immersed in those pages.

My favorite part was when Cassie started to tie all the murders to her mother’s. And those short “you” chapters just gave me chills. It was honestly terrifying to be in the mind of a killer and when she was sending that gift to Cassie ugh I was freaking out.

Overall, I really enjoyed this and I will definitely be continuing with the rest of the series asap.

 

 

Flawed by Cecelia Ahern – REVIEW 

Rating: 3/5 stars 

This book gets so many mixed reviews, I honestly wasn’t even gonna pick it up. But then it was lying on my shelf and one day I just ACCIDENTALLY started it. I know, what you’re thinking: how does one accidentally start a book? Well I was just trying to figure out which book to read next and I was going through my TBR pile, reading a page of every book until I came upon Flawed. And before I realized it I had read 30 pages.

So, I suppose what I’m saying is that it’s initially an interesting concept. Much like the Selection series. It’s too draggy, not much plot or everything is all over the place, but you just gotta keep reading.
In case you don’t know what this book is about and you’re mwindering what on earth I’m rambling about, lemme sum it up in a non-spoiler-y way:

It’s a dystopian novel about a society where the slightest “immoral” mistake is punished by branding the letter F on your body. It’s public humiliation to be considered “Flawed”. And then there’s this apparently perfect and flawless girl called Celestine North somehow ends up in this huge mess. That’s all I can really say.

I found it predictable in some parts or confusing. Although that is entirely to do with the way it was written, I suppose. The premise and the overall concept, I found terrifying. You come across all these Flawed people who barely did anything and they’re just publicly humiliated and disgraced. And then it occurred to me that our world is already slowly falling in to this sort of society. Discrimination is a serious issue, and I feel like this book sort of tries to bring that up, very vaguely though.

I didn’t hate the book, didn’t love it either. Will I pick up the second book next year? Eh, who knows. Maybe I might “accidentally ” pick up that one too 😂

NEVER ALWAYS SOMETIMES BY ADI ALSAID

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Author: Adi Alsaid

Pages: 308 pages

Goodreads rating: 3.39 avg. rating

My rating: 3.5/5 stars

There was a lot of buzz around this book’s release over on booktube and that’s how I found out about it. It’s about two best friends, Julia and Dave, who at the beginning of high school make a list of Nevers; high school cliches they would never do, like going to prom or throwing a party. Except as senior year rolls around they have the idea to do every one of the Nevers before they graduate. 

It’s your typical high school contemporary, I guess. Cute, fluffy, with just the right amount of self discovery. I liked it, this book was like a cute modern day John Hughes movie in book form. 

There were some parts that felt a little draggy and slow, which led me to not give it as high a rating as I would have liked. And I didn’t get to really connect too well with the characters as much as I would’ve liked to. But there were a lot of fun bits that genuinely made me laugh, because this is a high school comedy in book form.

It’s just a pretty darn cute book, I will give it that! I mean just look at that cover, you know it’s going to be cute. If you’re stuck in a book hangover this is a pretty good book to help you through it.It’s quick, and easy to get through and just a fluffy contemporary.